THIS IS IT!!!

The quitting of morning nursing is considered done. Haley doesn't cry for mommy's milk in the morning, and she is pretty comfortable with the morning drill. Just two more days, she will be 17-month old. Maybe tonight is the night to stop the night time feeding? Maybe I can push back a little more? Mommy is so wishy-washy.

Daddy, mommy and Haley were all in her room, as usual we played around and read some books. I hided the Boppy pillow from her sight and placed her favorite baby doll (仔仔) on her bed. I asked her where 仔仔 was. She saw 仔仔 on the bed and she pointed to it. I told Haley, "不如媽媽抱你上床，搵仔仔，順便瞓覺豬啦!" She then said, "抱抱" to me. I put her in bed, turned on the mobile and music. I said to her, "night night", and she gave me a 飛吻 and replied back, "night night". I turned off the light and closed the door. With just two fake crying, she stopped. I went back to check on her in about 10 minutes, she was already asleep.

THIS IS IT!!! I asked Owen... I can't go back to nurse her tomorrow... I am not ready ah!!! I was depressed for the rest of the night. Thinking over and over again of her facial expression after I nursed her every time. Her expression is so fulfilling with the sweetest smile. I sure will miss it. That smile is unique, it's different from her other smiles. UHHH!! I should be happy for Haley that she's another step to be a grown up baby!