This is it! I'm in active labor!

It's 1:30am! The intensity of the contraction is almost like last time when we decided to go to the hospital. Contractions have reached to the 5-1-1 sequence. I have asked my mom to come over to stay the night so she can take care of Haley if we have to leave to the hospital in the middle of the night. Since now I know how a mom feels when she sees her baby in pain, I can only imagine how worry my mom is when she can't come with me to the labor room.

The contractions are getting so intense on our way to the hospital... it's so painful, PAINful, PAINFUL! Since it's after hour, we have to enter the labor unit through the emergency room. Where are the nurse? I can't hold it any more... I was screaming at the ER, and luckily one of the EMT was standby at the ER, and he found me a wheelchair and brought me to the labor unit. I tried to breath through the contractions, but it's unbearable! The pain is killing me! I can't control myself but keep screaming to get some relief. A few nurses ran out and directed us into a labor unit. I demanded to get epidural injection right away, and the doctor acted really efficient and gave me the IV and epidural within 10 minutes. The midwife told me I was dilated to 8cm. The pain level dropped within minutes after the epidural, but I know I will be in trouble again during labor because not all the pain has been taken away. Oh no! Not again?? How come the epidural can never work effectively on me??

At around 4am, I was dilated to 10cm, and I am ready to push!!! Midwife sat everything ready and the MD was standing by. Take a deep breath, hold it, and push for 10 seconds! 12345678910! 12345678910! How can it be so hard? Push! PUsh! PUSH! Nothing is happening! I am in pain! So much pain that I can't use words to describe! I want to give up so bad! I am ready to use any method to take him out and get relief from the pain. After 1.5 hours of pushing, my baby is finally born! My tears kept dropping at the moment, the doctors, the nurses, and Owen must think that I'm so touched finally seeing my baby born. No! No! NO! I was crying so bad because it hurts really really bad when the doctor pulled him out of my body.

I was exhausted, but not as bad as last time. I can still talk and look at my baby being weighted and cleaned. What an experience! Although the length in labor is much shorter, yet I never imagine that the 2nd time labor can be so much more painful than the 1st time.

Well...I don't know how I got through labor, but I did it! Thank God for his blessings. Both my baby and myself are healthy, which is the most important thing!