I emotionally broke down again today. I was completely out of it when Haley acted up. I was mean, I was mad... I know she's only 32 months old, but I really couldn't control my temper. I couldn't release my anger, I didn't know what to do. I was in tear, I couldn't hold it anymore but to cry it out loud. Haley and Chester just sat there, looking at mommy...
Daddy came home in time to save the two, and I was finally able to calm down. I asked Haley to stay in her room with me, and I told her why mommy was sad. She said sorry to me, and gave me kisses and hugs. I said sorry to her too because I was mean. I prayed with her to confess and ask for forgiveness. She is an angel who sent by God.
I am glad that I am able to be a stay-home-mom so I can be with my babies, but taking care of them could be very weary. Patient is definitely not one of my personality traits. Dealing with them is a challenge everyday. I believe things happen in my life is part of God's plan. He knows what is my weakest point. He blessed me to be a mom, and He uses this "mommy" role to train me to be more considerate, caring, loving, patient... Through these challenges I encounter everyday, He pulled me back closer to Him so I can depend on Him.
Lord, I surrender! I can't do it on my own. Anger is no sin, but I can't control it not to venture into sin. Please help me!
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