哥哥與我

早幾天是哥哥的生晨，我們一家與他共進晚餐慶祝。

談到我跟我哥...我們在性格上一點也不像。 我是超級衝動派，七情六慾都放在臉上。他卻是優柔寡斷，對所有事都不聞不問，冷冷淡淡。由於媽媽對他的偏愛，令我一路以來對他不斷地刻意留難。幸好我哥很包容，不像我這些凡人一般見識，他老早已修練到事不關己，己不勞心的景界。回想下，雖然他對我這個妹妹沒有什麼言語上或行為舉止上的特別呵護，但他對金錢卻是一點也不吝嗇。任何時候我問他拿零用錢，就算是連他只緊有的零用錢，他也從不推搪，也可以與我分享。相信這就是他表現對家人的愛的方式吧！

從小到大，我跟他感情一向很好。或許現在大家有了自己的家庭，聯絡的時間小了，溝通上感覺上我們好像越來越陌生。因為他的愛理不理加上我的小姐脾氣，近年來我們的距離總是拉不近。但無論如何，在我心中，我是愛他與關心他的。

愛, 回家!

期待以久的旅程，距離飛往香港的日子止剩下十數天，我的心情既興奮又忐忑。許多人曾經都問我是否因為香港多彩多姿的生活才那麼喜歡它。或許部分原因是因為它那種永不停下的生活方式，但主要的原因是因為我認為香港才是真正屬於我的家。我的根生在香港，我的心永遠都與它連在一起。自1990年移民來美的第一天到今時今日，我的心從未變改。每次從香港返回美國，我的思念只是有增無減。這樣的思念真是太難熬，多天的失眠，丟不盡的眼淚，同時體重減輕，到最後終於要面對現實繼續正常的生活。我真的很害怕這樣的循環 - 期待，歡樂，悲傷，復原，再期待...

但不要誤會，我在美的生活一點也不痛苦。 我擁有快樂的人生，家人與朋友都給我無限的愛與關懷。 我真的非常幸福。 我的家人，我的朋友，我的事業，我的一切都在這裡，可是我總是找不到那份歸屬感，我在這裡永遠都只是一位過客。是我盲目地執著，還是對自己所愛的堅持?

我相信神有祂的指意，我向神禱告，即使活在西方社會是祂對我其中的一項計劃，我懇求神可以讓我愛香港的心輕微的慢慢減退。也許我一個人的改變，會令我跟身邊的人得到一些解脫。

溫暖牌

天氣越來越凍，我在幾星期前開始我既織頸巾計劃。 昨天終於大功告成！ 我重發現我里條頸巾同Kate Spade賣緊$95個條相似情度有99%忝呀！ 不過我里條就更加係無價寶啦！ 係我Siu Poon親手做既溫暖品牌喎！

"小潘"號

小潘這個別名是來自於三年前在加拿大旅行得來的。2004年Emily, Vincent, Esther, Mandy, Chris, Owen and我組隊到Vancouver。在當地第一天我買下一頂帽子，Esther形容我戴上帽子後就像大精探的小助手。而一般的助手名字都由個"小"字開始，自始以後Owen的家人都稱呼我為"小潘"。我也很喜歡我這專用的別號。

Thanksgiving Holiday

眨下眼,重剩番一日Thanksgiving holiday咋! Thanksgiving個晚Vincent's family, my family and Owen's family were gathered at my in-laws home. Somehow I don't have too much thanksgiving mood, maybe cuz we didn't prepare ham or turkey this year. Instead, we had豉油雞,燒肉重有魚翅鮑魚湯. 好豐富架! 我重固住食,唔記得左影下全家福忝!

放假既節目一定唔小得MJ啦! 由星期三晚開始, Owen足足打左28圈. 太過份啦!

今年經濟不景,D gas又越起越貴,所以我地無去Black Friday瘋狂大購物呀! 不過聽聞Ricky & Albert就由4:15am排隊入Frys,到中午12點成功買到平野. Patrick就由12點零晨係Gilroy shopped到朝早六點. 勁呀!

感謝神

感謝神賜我救贖主　感謝神豐富預備
感謝神過去的同在　感謝神主在我旁
感謝神賜溫暖春天　感謝神淒涼秋景
感謝神抹乾我眼淚　感謝神賜我安寧

感謝神禱告蒙應允　感謝神未蒙垂聽
感謝神我曾經風暴　感謝神豐富供應
感謝神賜我苦與樂　在絕望裡得安慰
感謝神賜無限恩典　感謝神無比慈愛

感謝神賜路旁玫瑰　感謝神玫瑰有刺
感謝神賜家庭溫暖　感謝神有福盼望
感謝神賜喜樂憂愁　感謝神屬天平安
感謝神賜明天盼望　要感謝直到永遠

LaStar與我

今日我究竟算返左工, 定無返工呢? Office一個人都見唔到, 早知我都唔返啦! 不過Stella約左我食lunch… 我地去左Pleasanton downtown既Baci到食agnes burger. Yum! 跟住我地重去埋Cheesecake Factory到品嚐美味既甜點. 真係甜到入心既strawberries shortcake with vanilla ice- cream啊! 好飽好飽呀! 我地兩個其實早兩個星期先見過, 但係我地仍然可以雞"叮"唔斷, 真攪笑! 不過我地最高記錄可以由放工6點傾到半夜12點, 傾到人地舖頭closed我地先肯走! 真係可以列入世界紀錄啦!

生日喎!

Thanks to all my beloved friends and family…celebrating my birthday with me yesterday. Owen好有心意咁煮左個瑤柱粥比我做早餐, 重加芒果雪糕做side dish忝. 雖然唔係好明個combination, 不過一早起身攪, 都算佢幾sweet 啦! 下旬Canna, Gary and Charlyn同我去左Palo Alto既Four Seasons Hotel飲下午茶. It’s a very lovely and peaceful place to spend an afternoon. 跟住夜晚就同我屋企人去左食Korean BBQ. 好好味呀! 最後Emily, Vincent, Tina, Albert, SamSam, Ricky, Patrick, Michael黎同我切birthday cake. Throughout the day, 我收到很多很多blessings from everyone’s phone calls, emails, and YMs. Especially when little Sammi sang me a birthday song and收到大姨由香港打黎既電話, I felt so loved. I love all the thoughtful gifts and 現金獎. I am so blessed to have everyone to be around with me. I LOVE them all.

視線轉移大法

I went for a job interview yesterday afternoon. This is the worst interview I have ever been to. The manager was ok, but the boss had such a bad attitude. He thinks he's the KING because he is boss. First of all, he didn't even review my resume prior to the interview. He asked a question, but he would cut me off and he would talk about something else when I tried to answer. He kept telling me how successful he is and so many people apply for the job and want to work for him. Just unbelievable! He is so rude and disrespectful. I wanted to walk out on him so bad.

In addition, he kept grubbing his face during the interview and his face was turning red in different spots, I tried to use "視線轉移大法" and focus on different part of his head... gosh! I tried so hard to look straight into his eyes the whole time...

The interview took almost 1.5 hours, I was glad that's over.

全城至尊雀王大賽

星期日係SamSam & Ricky既baby shower。 由三點至七點係baby shower，本來個party都以經帶比我地好多歡樂架啦! 點知黃生提意"全城至尊雀王大賽", 所以七點以後就變成雀王大賽。 16位參賽者，＄10參賽費，冠軍＄100大獎，亞軍＄50, 季軍$10安慰獎。

當Owen入左決賽時，我決定返屋企先。半夜時分, 我聞倒一陣銅嗅味, 一睇眼前竟然有一張＄100大元。Owen話好采無丟到自稱MJ Master個名喎！真係比激死呀！ SamSam重做左個chart黎見證成個賽事忝！

Ricky also summarized the game as: "經過6個鐘頭，28圈，112局嘅努力奮鬥，麻雀王終於旦生啦！最後四強别係Owen, Philip (Ah Shan), Rebecca (Sam's Mom), 同我Ricky。大家都打到好鬼死小心，三番都唔比人食。最後Owen憑密食三四番拋離咗其他對手勝出。Owen, 你連最基本甩牌既指力都冇, 我覺得我先至係真正嘅麻雀王，因為我係已全勝12圈榮獲第二名，哈哈！I DID IT!!! 比賽Highlight: 1. Tina - 大熱澳門竟然第一局就out咗 2. Patrick - 黑馬出綫，但係佢連三番都唔識食 3. Dante (Sam's Dad) - 食咗鋪十幾番都出唔到綫 4. Ricky - 帶咗I DID IT 牌，驘到飛起 5. Michael - 被衆人咀咒下，終於輸咗 6. Ah Shan - 唔爆得粗，谷Q住所以輸咗"

火星人與地球人接觸

禽晚又一次有9男女既組合啦! Christina, Emily, Vincent, Ah Shan, Ah Sa, Patrick, Owen, and our friend from Mars, Michael (Yick) treated me for pre-birthday dinner @ Tomodachi. 好耐都無食日本野啦! 樣樣都好好味啊! 我地又講起番香港啦! 我提起我既秘密計劃, 12月番香港時順便搵下有關奧運既工, 奧運喎！ 哩D咁歷史性既event, 可以參加就掂啦! 不過Owen啤左我幾野都知唔洗諗啦! 又比Owen發現我個鬼主意留係香港耐D添, 其實其他人都幾贊成丫!

Besides, Michael又一再次成為城中熱話喇! 睇下幅相...Michael好似火星人, 同我地D地球人唔同架! 哈哈哈!

加價熱潮

D 油又加價啦! 令我想起以下哩首歌!

作曲 De Knight-Freedman
作詞 許冠傑/黎彼得

你怕 我怕 個個怕 煙加 酒加 屋租加 巴士加 的士加 多士芝士乜都加 加 加 加 加 加 糖又加 鹽又加 成日咁加任佢話 其實無他 你住人屋宇下 佢梗收買路錢挪兩渣 買佢怕 買佢怕 要加就加 總之慣啦 牛油又加 蠔油又加 燃油 又話每「卡」七個六 其實無他 佢石油多到極 可惜真金白銀貶晒值 冇法啦 冇法啦 佢加就加 都由佢啦 紅荳沙 茶葉渣 全部要加慘到極 陀累全家 靠份糧點夠食 卒之到鼓油都冇滴 夠啦卦 夠啦卦 咪枕住加，喂 好啦卦 時時話加 年年話加 無盡咁加趕到絕 求助哪吒 我望能生對翼 即刻飛上月球再搵過食 就冇有怕 冇有怕 佢加就加 拜拜啦 （加加加……）（怕怕怕……） 人人話加 頻頻話加 成日咁加任佢話 其實無他 我做人多說話 加價熱潮風氣下 八下卦 八下卦 發起爛渣　谷鬼氣嘛

男子組 - It's a crack up!

Thanks to Ricky for having the idea and editting the video clip. He summed up this history-making moment as follow:

"Tina and Albert got married last Sunday, we all had a very good time. The whole wedding was very emotional and touching. In addition, 9 of us got together last week and made this music video as a SPECIAL wedding gift to them. Sam, Ricky, Vincent, Emily, Owen, Maggie, Matthew, Sindy, and the big star Ah Shan! This clip took us 4 hours and took me 8 hours to edit it. We all love this video and it made Tina cried in the wedding too!! Guys, we made another legend!"

一個忙過不停的週末

我們在剛剛過去的週末參加了四位好朋友的婚禮。 Both were great parties. Cassandra & Herbert的婚宴上有醒獅表演，場面好震撼呀！ 54圍的賓客, 勁！ 至於Tina & Albert的, 當然也有很多感人場面。 但在我身上也發生了極度尷尬的事。 我不小心把我的裙撕爛左,大鑊, 好大鑊! 好采多得個make-up artist, Janet幫手補救。真係一額汗! 相信兩個weddings都為我留下難忘的一頁。

生活逼人

今天睇新聞知道中國發生踩死人事件。 事發是因為一間Supermarket週年紀念大減價, 食油特買由＄54一瓶，減至＄39一瓶。 因為人太多，發生你推我讓既程放，終於總共有30多人死傷。 當地人為了慳一點點，要賠上生命，真的不值得。 可想言之當地人生活多麼艱苦，我們生活在這麼富足的地方，也許我們應該不再浪費身邊擁有的資源, 也要為我們可擁有的時常感恩。

無眼睇

因為BOO-YA事件,連日黎我疲勞轟炸Owen...上海? 上海? Owen終於話"你放過我啦!"

BOO-YA!

Owen講了一件事關如他有位IT同事要去上海幫手setup新office. 有令外一位西人同事教他如果有人要賣東西給你, 你就對他說"BOO-YA!" Owen想了很久, 他們其實應該是想說 "不要" (普通話). 太攪笑喇!

Owen以為講完得啖笑...但係故事帶黎...

Me: 上海? 點解我唔知你公司有上海新office架?
Owen: IT同事淨係去做setup咋!
Me: 無可能! 有咩理由IT都要由美國飛去? 無理由唔請engineer既?
Owen: 無呀!
Me: 一定有既! 我唔信！不如問下丫?
Owen: 無呀! 真係無呀!
Me: 上海?
Owen: 你都唔會鍾意架啦！
Me: 上海?
Owen: 無呀!
Me: 上海?
Owen: 你癲左咩!

唔通我真係咁想離開美國? 就算唔係香港都OK? Am I really ready? 或者因為最近工作唔係咁順利啦! 我都唔知啦!

唔該食飯丫！

Just A Minimum Respect

Our business partners have made a decision NOT to terminate an important project about a month ago. I did not agree to it, but I got voted off. However, we have agreed to revisit the same issue in the next three months. I wanted to give up so bad along the line, but I told myself to stick to my words. I tried my best to continue even when I noticed some others have withdrawn from more & more of the responsibilities in the project. I've been telling myself that the deadline is only till the end of December, I should give it all to make it happen. Unfortunately, I found out a news that I don't want to hear today. In fact, I found out from an "outsider" that some individuals have indirectly terminated the project on their own. THEY BROKE THEIR PROMISE. I don't understand why... WHY? I had no problem to terminate the project when I was actually the first one to bring it up. Perhaps, pay me just the minimum respect to notify me! Why do I have to find out from someone else? I was very disappointed and I felt I got betrayed AGAIN...why am I so dumb?

究竟現在幾點?

因為day time saving system, 我們將所有鐘錶都教慢了。昨天星期天多了一個小時。 這多了的一小時令一天變得很漫長。我想我真的多賺了生命中的一小時吧！可是無論我們怎樣操控鐘錶上的時間...它依然tic tac tic tac 的逝去。也許我的想法實在太天真啦！想起六年級記念冊上的老套字句 "一吋光陰一吋金，吋金難買吋光陰 (吋人被人打鑊金)"。我要學習真惜每分每秒, 活出生命。真的說起容易做就...

甜甜的媽咪

昨天媽咪生日，去了"食神" celebrated. 見到媽媽的笑臉，發覺我和她真的太相似啦!

Halloween 2007

We had a blast last night @ ASSS' home. It was a great party. Stephanie wrapped everything up by sending the email out:

"thank you coming to the party last nite, it was really really fun! food was wayyyyyyyy too good, crazy!!! thanks for everyone of bring such a good food! special thanks for Teng's family of bring so many dishes last nite too, it must took lot of preparation! great job! Big thanks for everyone taking the effort to dress up for the party (especially our senior guests, uncle Poon, uncle Teng & Teng Aunt), u guys looked GREAT! .........an also our mermaid Dorty with super TRENDY hair style by professional stylist Canna Teng! (i finally understand why u have so many clients in your styling business!) and i also like Patrick's lab costume, as he was just being himself (he works in lab during the day). Owen's costume was really impressive too! Full GEAR! oh, and all our little animals were just toooooooooooo cute! Our bumble bee Oscar, ducky Candice, "Siu Fei Cheung" Sky, Penguin Charlyn, and my two meerkats Sammi and Sasa! thank you all our babies for being so cute and good last nite, our little monsters gave us lot of fun and laugh! Hope we can all scare each other again next year too!"