Daddy & Haley

Good-bye poop poop

The weakest mom

It was Haley's 15 month well check yesterday. Her weight is only 21lb and 2oz, and 25%, maybe she's now more active and teething, so she didn't gain much weight in the last 3 months. However, she's a tall girl, 32.3inches and 94%. As mandatory, she needed to get blood draw for lead exam at the lab. I had to hold her tight at the chair while the nurse tried to find her vein. There was another nurse trying to hold her arm as well. Haley was crying...crying so loud, she turned her head and looked at me , crying loudly and saying "MOM, HELP ME HELP ME!" Oh, my heart hurt so bad, my tears began to fall too. The nurse put a needle on her arm, yet still can't get the blood draw. She took the needle out and tried to poke her at a different place, but Haley was struggling, kicking, and yelling. I finally broke down, I cried too, so the nurse stopped and asked if I wanted to continue or not. I couldn't, I couldn't stand that. Owen has a day off tomorrow so I will have daddy bring Haley there. Haley stopped crying, but kept pointing at the doorway after they released her from the lab chair. It was so embarrassed that everyone at the lab was looking at me. I guess I am the weakest mom ever!!! I want to set a good example to Haley to be a brave girl, I tried so hard to hold my emotions, but I couldn't. I wish Haley will not be as overly sensitive as her mom. I had to go to the restroom to cry out even more and calm down before I walked out of the hospital. It was just so embarrassing.

Owen brought Haley to the lab this morning, while I went to visit grandma. Owen said she cried and asked to leave as soon as she saw the lab chair. But within minutes, with the help of the nurse, it was done like a piece of cake.

I always thought Haley is a separate individual now, how come I suffer so much when I see her suffer. I now totally understand the meaning of 切肉不離皮.

Spoon feeding

BINGO AGAIN!

Owen and I have talked about having another baby for a few months. Since it took us over a year of trying before having Haley last time, we have decided to start early this time. WOW! It's out of our expectation that it happened so fast this time. We are so excited!!! Baby No. 2, we are so happy that you are here!

That FB!!

Grandma’s mini stroke took place in Peony Restaurant. We went there so often that my dad is a VIP for sure. I tried to call 911 from my cell phone, yet the reception was bad that our line got disconnected. I rushed to the cashier counter at Peony and asked one of the captains for me to use their phone. That FB first asked me to use my own cell phone, and I explained to her that the reception in the restaurant was bad. She then told me to walk out of the restaurant to make the call. D it! I need to describe grandma’s situation while on the phone with the 911 operator and ambulance team. I don’t want to waste time to argue with her, so I ran out to make another call. Luckily I gave enough information on the first call, and the ambulance was already on their way. Just unbelievable that FB wouldn’t let me use their business phone. It may only take up to 3 minutes of her business line, and she’s not the owner anyway. I don’t know what’s in her mind that more important than saving a person’s life. Pisses me off when I think about that.

God is looking after grandma

On February 18, I brought Haley to have dim sum with grandma and dad @ Peony. In the middle of meal, we looked at grandma and her food was falling out from her mouth. We asked her what's happening, and she was only able mumble and her left arm was not able to move. I ran over to her doctor, and the nurse told me to call 911 right away. Within minutes, the paramedic and ambulance were there and took grandma to the nearby hospital. I packed everything right away and followed to the hospital. Haley didn’t panic and behave very well. I called Owen so he could come take Haley home while I stay with grandma at the ER. Doctors examined her and completed all the tests; they diagnosed grandma has a TIA, which also called a mini stroke. TIA usually leaves no long term brain damage, however grandma’s blood pressure was at 199 and up (normal 120), so they decided to admit grandma to the hospital for monitoring. Grandma was conscious the whole time, she was able to speak and she could lift her left arm by the time she settled at the ER. For seven hours of wait, she finally got transferred to a private room at 9:30pm. Mom and Dad came to visit and I decided to stay over night with grandma at the hospital.

That was the first night which Haley went to bed without mom around. According to Owen, Haley behaved really well, she cried a bit and tried to look for mommy. I missed her so much that I cried a few times when I thought of her at the hospital. It was such a long night being away from my baby and with nurses coming in & out to check on grandma. The neurologist, physical therapist, speech therapist, and cardiologist came by in the morning to examine her. There were more exams to be made in the next day. Dad came to take over and I got to go home to Haley. Owen told me that Haley cried when she didn’t see mommy after she woke up. However she calmed down after he offered her milk and breakfast. She was napping by the time I got home around noon time. I ran into her room as soon as I heard noise from her room. Haley saw mom walked in, she stood up with a big smile on her face and she called Mama Mama! My heart melted and I held her so tight and told her how much I missed her.

I went back to the hospital at night to stay with grandma for another night. Grandma is recovering slowly. She speaks clearly, and she regained some strength on her left arm already. She was able to get off bed and walk to the bathroom with nurse’s assistance. I was so reluctant to leave Haley for another night, but I got to be there for grandma too. Lucky that Owen arranged to work from home on the next day so he could take care of Haley while I was away. I explained to grandma that I won’t be able to stay every night at the hospital because I need to take care of Haley when Owen’s at work, yet one of us will be there to visit her during the day.

The doctor ordered more therapies for her during the day, and grandma is in a very good progress. They wanted to discharge her from the hospital as soon as her blood pressure stabilized. I have spoken with the social worker and we chose a skilled nursing facility near dad’s home for grandma during the rehab period. Grandma got transferred to this location last night. We had a quick tour at the location the night before and it looks good. The people there were nice to help us as well. She shares room with two other old ladies and she looks comfortable being there. The timeframe is 2-3 weeks for grandma to stay there for therapy. I will talk to the therapist tomorrow to get a better idea of grandma’s recovered progress.

Give thanks to God for his healing power!

Aquadoodle

Daddy said he can see a little Picasso in Haley, but I doubt that Picasso ever ate his brush like Haley does. Ha! Ha!

Daddy & Haley

Daddy took a photo of Haley and himself watching TV while I was away with grandma at the hospital. What were they watching? Elmo? Wonder Pets? Barney? NO NO NO! Daddy made Haley watched the basketball game with him, but Haley looked pretty interested.

Smell my feet!

年初二回娘家

New Year Outing @ Lake Elizabeth

Goose Goose encounter!

大年初一在嫲嫲爺爺家拜年

"行"樓梯

小小雲不再"爬"樓梯！
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H0_s-lahAs0

大年初一向婆婆公公拜年

1st nursery experience

媽媽爸爸去星期日教會崇拜，小小雲要留在幼兒室一小時。小小雲一到就被所有的玩具吸引著，連我們跟她擁抱說再見也沒有太大反應。當我們進了禮堂，媽媽想著想著竟然眼裡不斷湧出眼淚，真是尷尬。可是這次是媽媽第一次留下小小雲給陌生人照顧啊！一小時終於過去了！爸媽快步回到幼兒室，看見姐姐抱著小小雲，小小雲一看見了媽媽，便哭出來了！她的聲音是多麼可憐啊！姐姐說她玩了一下，想起不見了媽媽便哭起來；看見新奇事物又停了下來。她斷斷續續地玩耍和哭，姐姐說第一次算是好啦。多去幾次希望小小雲會很快適應，應該說媽媽也要快快適應與小小雲有小別的時候吧！

賀年衫花生騷

年卅晚團年 - 小片段

新年全家幅

Obessed!

Do I still have a life? Every thought of mine is filled with Haley. It seems normal that my baby is my everything when being a stay home mom. I need to learn and let go of Haley sometimes, but I miss her whenever I don’t see her around. When she’s asleep, I will go check on her all the time. It’s been forever since the last time I sleep through the night myself without waking up. Owen found out that I even brought one of her undershirt with me to sleep, and he says I’m just too obsessed. Wow! I think I’m sick! Am I? It’s pretty overwhelmed and tiring being the way I am. I think I should find a balance between being a mom, a wife, and being myself! HELP! HELP! HELP!

Brotherly love

I feel bad when my mom sometimes makes comments that my brother and I are not as close as when we were young. I can feel her disappointment, yet helpless to repair our relationship. I wish we can be good friends who hang out, share feelings and thoughts just like the other siblings; especially we are only 2 years apart. We grew up together, went to the same schools, and had the same group of friends back then, yet we are so different from each other; I’m not sure since when, I seem to have a very hard time to find a topic to talk to him about. I honestly have tried hard to rebuild our relationship until Haley came in my life and I have given her 100% of attention. What irritates me the most is my mom always blames on me for our broken relationship. She kept saying that I never appreciated my brother’s care, and gave him attitude all the time. Truthfully, I dig deep to find memories of those special moments between my brother and myself. The only thing that I really find is that he would always give me his spending money with no question asked when we were little while he was reluctant to spend it on video games for himself. Other than that, there are endless incidents that I feel no love from him. He used to not include me with the neighborhood friends when we still lived in Kowloon. We invited our own friends to our first and only birthday party that was held at our home in Shatin, he let his junior high classmate teased me without standing on my side. He never comfort with words while I was crying day and night when we first came to the States. I asked him for a ride to pick me up from the BART station at eight at night, and he refused with a reason that he has to sleep, so I have to walk 15 minutes home in the dark. My mom complains that everything happened the way it is because of my bad attitude. Well, how can I not piss off while he is always an hour late to our gatherings. Should I still thank him for at least showing up and praise him for his presence? I love my brother and I care for him, but the fire will die when he keeps pouring cold water over and over again. Of course my mom is speechless every time I responds to her accuse, yet I know her every intention is to help. I wonder if she ever give the same talk to my bro.

桃花盛況

The photos were taken at the dental office. Poor mommy had two cavities, so Haley and daddy had to wait around!

年廿八與嫲嫲爺爺團年

人生有幾多個廿年？

今天是來美廿年的紀念日。自從小小雲出現後，二月十日對我來說已變了令一天看著她便快樂的一天了！從前愁雲慘霧冤天冤地的感覺也不再有了！多謝你呀！

Kissing daddy @ the stairway

Beautiful view outside of the Union City library Haley is excited visitng the birds and ducks @ children's area in Union City library

I got my own shopping cart

Haley enjoys going grocery shopping. She loves to transport her toy-fruits & veggies in & out of her shopping cart. It's getting harder to take picture of Haley because she won't stay still. She will drop everything and want to look at the screen when she sees mommy holding the camera.

Tea time with little friends @ Babies"R"US

我唔想著靴呀！

爸爸媽媽計劃在中國新年其間帶小小雲去玩雪，所以我們準備挑購一對靴子給她，可是她對所有靴子也沒有好感。媽媽也很久沒有看見她哭得那麼聲嘶力竭了！穿了靴就不懂走路的小小雲很可憐啊！但是她的表情和身體動作實在太爆笑了！

拖"蟲蟲"行街

姑姐姑丈bought this gift all the way from Europe for Haley. Thank you!

Calling the important ppl in my life

Communicating...

Haley is going to be 15-month old soon. She's learning to communicate with Mommy everyday. Not only she would point to the things she wants, she would even say a few words to indicate her desire. When she wants to be nursed, she will point to mommy and say "奶奶". She will put her hand on the chair when we are in the library and say "ma ma", so she can get help from Mommy. She will pet the wooden horse and say "馬馬", so she can ride on it. Sometimes she will even take commands from Mommy like, "拎番奶奶樽嚟食mum mum". She will walk to the stairs when I tell her "上去啦!" When Daddy asks Haley to start the engine, she will twist the key while she's on her Kai-Lan 車車. She is learning so fast that sometimes what she does just amazed me. She will bring a book and try to sit on my lap when she wants to read, she will repeat the words that I say to her. She will "點蟲蟲" when I point at the bugs, say "汪汪" when she sees a dog. She will 拍手手 when we sing "If you are happy and you know it, clap your hands". When she sees Mommy & Daddy hug each other, she will come over and try to get between us, so she can be in the family hug as well. Haley is growing so fast...Daddy wonders when she will 同爸爸傾心事.